Saturday, August 31, 2019

I live yet do not live in me

I live yet do not live in me,
am waiting as my life goes by,
and die because I do not die.

No longer do I live in me,
and without God I cannot live;
to him or me I cannot give
my self, so what can living be?
A thousand deaths my agony
waiting as my life goes by,
dying because I do not die.

This life I live alone I view
as robbery of life, and so
it is a constant death — with no
way out until I live with you.
God, hear me, what I say is true:
I do not want this life of mine,
and die because I do not die.

Being so removed from you I say
what kind of life can I have here
but death so ugly and severe
and worse than any form of pain?
I pity me — and yet my fate
is that I must keep up this lie,
and die because I do not die.

The fish taken out of the sea
is not without a consolation:
his dying is of brief duration
and ultimately brings relief.
Yet what convulsive death can be
as bad as my pathetic life?
The more I live the more I die.

When I begin to feel relief
on seeing you in the sacrament,
I sink in deeper discontent,
deprived of your sweet company.
Now everything compels my grief:
I want — yet can’t — see you nearby,
and die because I do not die.

Although I find my pleasure, Sir,
in hope of someday seeing you,
I see that I can lose you too,
which makes my pain doubly severe,
and so I live in darkest fear,
and hope, wait as life goes by,
dying because I do not die.

Deliver me from death, my God,
and give me life; now you have wound
a rope about me; harshly bound
I ask you to release the cord.
See how I die to see you, Lord,
and I am shattered where I lie,
dying because I do not die.

My death will trigger tears in me,
and I shall mourn my life: a day
annihilated by the way
I fail and sin relentlessly.
O Father God, when will it be
that I can say without a lie:
I live because I do not die?
St. John of the Cross

Saturday, August 24, 2019

Small Deeps

Small Deeps

We are too complicated.
We seek God here, there and everywhere.
We seek God in holy places, in books,
in rules, regulations, rites and rituals.
We seek God in pomp and glory and ceremony,
in relics and statues
and visions and shrines.
We seek God in Popes and Fathers and saints.
Ah, like lost bewildered children,
we seek outside the God
who waits to be found
in the small deeps
of the human heart.

Edwina Gateley

Wednesday, August 21, 2019

Send out your light

Send out your light and your truth, 
that they may lead me, 
and bring me to your holy hill and to your dwelling. 
Psalm 43:3

Tuesday, August 20, 2019

The earth

The earth is at the same time mother,
she is mother of all that is natural,
mother of all that is human.
She is the mother of all
for contained in her
are the seeds of all.
The earth of humankind
contains all moistness,
all verdancy,
all germinating power.
–Hildegard of Bingen (1098-1179) 

Saturday, August 17, 2019


"A society must assume that it is stable, but the artist must know,
and he must let us know, that there is nothing stable under heaven."

 James Baldwin

Wednesday, August 14, 2019

The Observer, by Rilke

The Observer
I can tell a storm by the way the trees
are whipping, compared to when quiet,
against my trembling windows, and
I hear from afar things whispering
I couldn't bear hearing without a friend
or love without a sister close by.
There moves the storm, the transforming one,
and runs through the woods and through the age,
changing it all to look ageless and young:
the landscape appears like the verse of a psalm,
so earnest, eternal, and strong.
How small is what we contend with and fight;
how great what contends with us;
if only we mirrored the moves of the things
and acquiesced to the force of the storm,
we, too, could be ageless and strong.
For what we can conquer is only the small,
and winning itself turns us into dwarfs;
but the everlasting and truly important
will never be conquered by us.
It is the angel who made himself known
to the wrestlers of the Old Testament:
for whenever he saw his opponents propose
to test their iron-clad muscle strength,
he touched them like strings of an instrument
and played their low-sounding chords.
Whoever submits to this angel,
whoever refuses to fight the fight,
comes out walking straight and great and upright,
and the hand once rigid and hard
shapes around as a gently curved guard.
No longer is winning a tempting bait.
One's progress is to be conquered, instead,
by the ever mightier one. 

Rainer Maria Rilke (1875–1926)

Saturday, August 10, 2019

"real" prayer

“How easily we slide into thinking of our prayers as the “real” prayer. What is the “real” prayer, the grace we say at the table, or the meal that follows it? And if we pray at all times, as we should, our eating and drinking will be real prayer. Gratefulness will turn the whole meal into prayer, for after we pray our prayers, we will pray our soup, salad, and dessert.”
-David Steindl-Rast, Gratefulness, the Heart of Prayer

Gratefulness: The Heart of Prayer
by David Steindl-Rast

Thursday, August 8, 2019

Bishop Gutiérrez Represents Church on Pilgrimage

On August 8, Bishop Gutiérrez will head to the Holy Land for 11 days at the invitation of the Secretary General of the Anglican Communion, The Most Rev. Dr. Josiah Idowu-Fearon. Bishop Gutiérrez will represent The Episcopal Church in a special pilgrimage that is the prelude to the Lambeth Conference in 2020. Archbishops and bishops from across the Anglican Communion, including those from Africa, Asia, North and South America, Europe and Oceania, will also be represented. 

The theme of the pilgrimage is “Equipping the Church: Living with Differences.” The participants will stop to pray and contemplate at a variety of biblical sites, reflecting on the four themes of the upcoming Lambeth Conference.

“I am grateful to Archbishop Josiah for the invitation and the opportunity to participate in this pilgrimage with archbishops and bishops from across the Communion,” said Gutiérrez. “I look forward to establishing deep relationships across the Communion and I am honored to represent the Diocese of Pennsylvania and the Episcopal Church as we share our voice and prayers across the wider Church.” 

The Lambeth Conference dates back to 1867. Fourteen Lambeth Conferences have met since, about every 10 years, with breaks during the two World Wars. Despite having no official powers, Lambeth Conferences gradually gained respect and influence and have always focused on the theme of Christian unity. 
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Tuesday, August 6, 2019

Seeking organist at St. Mary's Episcopal Church ~ Cathedral Road ~ Philadelphia

Organist at St. Mary’s Episcopal Church - Cathedral Road
630 East Cathedral Road, Philadelphia, PA 19422

Position description of the position of Organist at St. Mary’s:

One service per week of Holy Eucharist - Prelude, Opening Hymn, Service Music,
Offertory Hymn, Communion Hymn, Ending Hymn, Postlude

Special Services on special days, including: St. Mary’s Feast Day, Thanksgiving,
Christmas, Ash Wednesday, Holy Week and Easter

Collaborate with Rector to plan music for each Sunday’s Service

Embrace the spirit of music as a way to bring people into the church from a variety
of backgrounds.

Seek ways to involve parishioners and worshippers in the musical experience of
worship through creative and innovative offerings and opportunities

Use the full range of musical resources of the Episcopal Church, including:
The Hymnal 1982, Lift Every Voice and Sing, Wonder Love and Praise

Currently no choir responsibilities
Teaching Sunday School Children to learn 6-8 songs per year

$16,000 Yearly Compensation
Opportunity for additional income for weddings, funerals, and special services
Four weeks, including four Sundays, of paid vacation per year

To apply, please submit cover letter, resume, and three references to the 
Organist Search Committee at 
or to our rector, The Rev. Peter M. Carey at 

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Thursday, August 1, 2019

2019 Diocesan Convention of the Episcopal Diocese of Pennsylvania

2019 Diocesan Convention of the Episcopal Diocese of Pennsylvania

My dear brothers and sisters,
The theme of this year's Diocesan Convention is what I am calling the mustard seed revolution: "For truly I tell you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you." Matthew 17:20

In my last three years, I have seen that truly nothing is impossible. There is so much creativity, innovation, and faith among us. Together, we are stronger. Together, we are growing.
The 236th Convention of the Episcopal Diocese of Pennsylvania will begin on Friday, November 1, with Eucharist followed by dinner and continue on Saturday, November 2. (Specific times will be sent out next month.) Both dates will be held at The Philadelphia Episcopal Cathedral.
We will also hold a special program on Thursday, October 31, for the diocese and community at the new Diocesan House located at 23 E. Airy St. in Norristown.
Specific times for the all the programming and how to register will be shared via email and on social media next month.
I also write to remind you that according to our canons, the following items are due from each parish vestry no later than the opening of Convention if they have not already been submitted:
* The Annual Parochial Report for the Calendar year 2018
* An audit of parish finances for the Calendar year 2018
* Your commitment of Sacred Gifts (formerly "canonical" assessment and a voluntary pledge)
If your vestry is unable to submit these items prior to Convention, a written explanation is requested so that the Convention may have a greater understanding for its consideration regarding seat, voice and vote for the parish delegation to Convention. 

As I begin my fourth year of ministry with you, I am constantly amazed at the level of service and devotion in this community. 

Thank you for all that you have done and continue to do.
Your brother in Christ,
The Rt. Rev. Daniel G. P. Gutiérrez
XVI Bishop of The Episcopal Diocese of Pennsylvania

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